Monday, November 3, 2008
Another Monday. I am currently doing absolutely nothing, I figured I would update the post. So today, I walked out my apartment and to my surprise, I saw snow capping the mountains. It was beautiful. I continued to look around and I was surrounded by orange and yellow and very faded green leaves. I stopped and breathed in. It smelled delicious. I'm sure if seasons were a food, Autumn would be the delicacy/main course/dessert/my FAVORITE. I walked around campus and with every step I took, I kicked leaves. I was surrounded by millions of leaves on the ground. Again, I inhaled deeply. It was magnificent. I'm sure I looked like a blood hound who is trying to track some animal. If I didn't have class earlier, I would have just stayed there and breathed. According to Kayleigh, I am in the middle of an existential crisis. I am figuring out that I am alive. I exist. It's an amazing thing to discover, really. And then I look around and see students and teachers hurrying to their next classes. Staring at the floor, avoiding eye contact because heaven forbid, they have to waste 2 seconds to say "Hi, how are you?" Its all about time. We don't have time to do what we need to do, and we barely have enough time to cram all of our crap into one day. Less risks are taken. What is life without risks? I will tell you what it is, POINTLESS. A very wise man (my English professor) once said, "A sitting duck will die. The question is 'did someone else kill them? Or did they kill themselves?'" So good people of Cyberspace, I am asking you to do one thing. Just stop and breathe. Move your fingers and toes. Feel your existence and quit living in such a robotronic way. Don't be the sitting duck that commits suicide. You are better than that. You are a miracle.