midnight rambles.

i just want to talk for a minute.

i read this hilarious paper from one of my classmates today about being a confused boy surrounded by menstruating women. i laughed out loud more than once and i ended it up reading it to my roommates. it's funny to see the guy's point of view. especially when he is from your creative writing class so he doesn't hold back by anymeans.

i have this awful cough. i had a cold too, but i'm pretty much cured from that, the dang cough won't stop though.

Landon. he is amazing. i love it when he gets sleepy and his words are slurred together and he has this sleepy smile that melts my heart. i like to tuck him in and watch him get all snuggly and say funny things he wouldn't say if he was 100% conscious.

i'm watching my roommates right now doing their homework. actually, doing shelise's homework. ness doesn't even have school, she just took upon herself the decorating of shelise's poster display while shelise writes a paper for her other class.

the new guy in glee is harry potter from a very potter musical. haven't heard of it? look it up on youtube and be sure you have some time, because the whole thing is a couple hours long. anyway, he rocks. i get excited every time i see him in glee.

annnnnnd. i love Landon.
annnnnnd. i know that you're reading this Landon, and laughing to yourself about how "cute" i am. and i want to resent you for that, but i can't. because you just end up making those puppy dog eyes and i can't refuse it.
damn you.
:)

amo a Landon

i like piano music. i could listen to it all day and night and i love it when my roommate nancy practices. i sit on my lovesac and revel at her amazing talent.
i also like Landon. i like going to church with him and letting him tickle my arm with a pen only to find the entire palm of my hand tattooed in green ink. i like how he is a good sport when his roommate points out his long hair to everyone in the ward during his talk. i like watching the office with him and i like...just being with him. correction: i love being with him. i love how he lets me use his printing credit at the school because i don't have enough money to buy my own. i love how he lets me use his truck because poor joanna is in the shop. i love how he buys me a lamp so i can read at night without disturbing my roommate. i love how he tells me everything he loves about me and i get all bashful. i love how bowling is the only thing he really gets upset at in front of me. i love how i love beating him in anything i can except for bowling. i love how he managed to convert me to being a byu fan when i really had no preference before.

i love Landon.

sometimes.

sometimes you have those days when you back your car up into a piece of steel so hefty, you could drop it off the empire state building and no damage would come of it. and it sucks. and sometimes you get stuck in traffic in the middle of the night because of a crash up the road. and it sucks.

sometimes you don't get a text from someone you wanted. and it sucks. and sometimes you feel like all of the people you get advice and love and friendship from are all off in different countries and you're alone. and it sucks.

sometimes your feet are so cold, it causes pain to the rest of your body. and it sucks. and sometimes you just really, really feel like you need a hug to blind you from the pain you feel from your daily mistakes. and it sucks.

but every time, there is someone there for you. someone to drive you to the repair shop and sit in traffic with. or someone to complain about "how far away argentina is" with. or a good pair of socks. and when you're with those people, the sucking seems less...lonely. i guess it's true, that misery loves company. but could it possibly be that sometimes, the company makes it less miserable? i think so.

and sometimes, i feel like there should be little asians sleeping in my dresser. and frankly, that frightens me.

approval

it was jj's birthday last night. we went to nightmare on 13th. i've loved this haunted house in the past, but i will be honest, i was not impressed with it this year. there must have been 20 actors in the entire thing! and let's be honest, no haunted house is complete without a clown room. even though i'm not particularly afraid of clowns, they just get all up in your bid-nass and are rude, but still.
we were sitting at VOP (my old apartment complex) with girls that i am not that fond of (immature and rather annoying) watching the 6th sense. Landon was sitting inbetween jj and me leaned forward eating his pizza and drinking his mt. dew. we [Landon, jj and me] couldn't hear the movie because everyone was talking so loud and yet we stared at the screen. jj monotone-ly said/sang, "poi-son" and i looked over and him and he looked at me and i sang with a little more melody,"you're poison running through my veins" and he started to move his body slightly to an imaginary beat, "you're Poi-sonnn!" and together, pointing at each smiling , "I can't break these cha-ins!! POI-SON!" jj and i were so delighted with each other and he asked trivially with hope, "double points if you know who sings it!" with a tone as if he asked me what 1+1 was i said, "alice cooper!" jj slapped Landon on the back and said, "dude, you hold onto this one!! she is a keeper!" this was the first time jj had vocally approved of our relationship.

i've got my old friend back.

hail jessica.

i've been waiting all day for Landon to get home so we can go to St. George. the dude is taking FOREVER. i've been sitting on my balcony playing my harmonica for the past hour. my tongue and lips hurt. and for the past 7 months, that isn't the usual reason for them hurting.

i have an annoyance to get off my chest. the manager at my apartment complex. she thinks she is the shiz. she's not. jessica (jessthica is how we say her name. mockingly. refer to this video and replace the name jackie with jessica and you will get it.) we have a UVU banner hanging from the balcony of our apartment right? it doesn't look tacky, it just shows that we have school pride you know? well, jessica (instert tone) left us a note on our door saying, "please take down the uvu flag."and on the paper it said we had 48 hours to take it down before they would dispose of it and charge our account $25. i guess blogging about this won't quite show how she wrote it, but there was a tone in her handwriting that screamed hate. we almost didn't move into this complex because of her attitude toward us. she was absolutely awful to my roommates and me while we were signing our contracts. we now want to hang a flag off our balcony that says, "Hail Jessica!" the flag has been taken down, but it is not in our dining room window just plain as day, but there isn't anything she can do about it because it is inside. take that.

hail jessica.

i'm back.

missed you all. i've been in the process of moving and with our new place, internet wasn't an amenity. so here i am, leeching off some random person's internet. and. it. sucks.
on a more positive note, i'm in love. Landon is the best. did you know?
he and i went dirt bike riding yesterday. he is so awesome.
i'm telling you world, there is no better person for me
ON THIS PLANET
than Landon J. Street.
none.
thank you God, for my
one
true
love.

you want feel good music?

country
music
is the best
music
that
i've
ever
discovered.

p.s.

i'm listening to pandora right now, and this song came on. i found it very fitting.
it's absolutely lovely.

I like you, haiku

first of all i would like to start out saying the in-n-out has about the best customer service i have ever recieved.
every
time
i've
been
there.
so props to in-n-out.
it's been decided that whenever we have a crappy day at work (my friend kim and i) we are going to go to in-n-out for lunch because the employees always make us feel better about ourselves.

so lately, not a lot of excitment has pertruded my life. it's like, i'm stuck in a rut of cliches that's turning more into
quicksand.
i want to just disappear for a day or two and write. i've got a couple epic poems i need to write. and because of this reason, i cannot wait for school to start so i can start taking my poetry class. i love poetry.
i shared a haiku i wrote back in january with some of my co-workers because they were dissing the haiku. how dare they. i turned around in my chair, legs crossed, arms resting lazily on my chair and said:

"mismatched pajamas,
blonde hair in a messy braid.
brushing her white teeth,
blood leaks from and open cut.
oncoming gingivitus."

and i turned my chair back around and got back to work. i needn't defend the name of haikus after that.

back to work.

this last week, i turned twenty.
i spent my birthday with some of the most important people in my life, at one of my most favorite places on earth.
boating for 4 days does the soul good. even better when you're with people like detro, cam, brenden and Landon. excitement and fun are serious understatments. especially when being confronted by strange boys while naked. you really want to know the story behind that now don't you?
this last week, my sound track has been ke$ha. who knew... it just flows so well with the waves and the beat of the boat. plus, i like Landon's beard too.

cheyenne: 420 miles

went to wyoming today with kayleigh. most random
and
yet a delightful journey. we drove for
two hours
and were there for about
35 minutes.
we got pictures with dinosaurs and
billboards.
rest stops are not merely for
resting,
but are for using the
oh-so-sketchy bathrooms.
and guess what,
it's customary to honk your horn
when crossing the
state border.

then Landon bought me a new thor shirt.
i love him.

let the records show

just in case an asteroid hits the earth tomorrow:

i love Landon.
i love my older brother.
i love my mom and dad.
i love my little sister.
i love learning.
i love loving.
i love.....



also, robert pattinson isn't that bad of an actor. in fact,

i really loved him in "remember me."

i owe it all to the brittish guy who narrates the harry potter books.

sometimes. bad days happen.
days where you wish, "man, if tomorrow is going to be like this, i'd rather not be there."
days where crying is the only logical thing that will happen to you.
where great plans fall through and all your hard work
isn't
appreciated.
days where your pillow and blankets are your only comfort.
days where the only person who can make you smile,
doesn't.
days where you're out of gas
and out of tampons.
days where
all
hope
seems
lost.


that was my day yesterday.
i tried to skip today, and if it was up to me this morning, i would have skipped tomorrow too.
but alas,
today happened.
and guess what,
it wasn't
that bad.

thanks j.k. rowling.

today was good.

first day out on the lake today. i thought my base tan that was really quite nice would keep me from burning. nope. but it's a good burn. cleared the wake today. a couple times. lots of tubing. sun was hot, water was refreshing, company was good.
got back to orem, somewhat exhausted. boating really takes it out of ya, especially after being exposed to more sun that intended, and i was greeted with a date. three game of laser tag and another game of bowling. i love being with Landon. he makes me happier than anyone and to be honest, he is the only person on this earth who could keep me out doing stuff in the state i was in. and now it hurts to move. but it's great. today was good.


also, happy birthday Dani.

"don't be afraid, feel my chest"

dead asleep.
jolt!
the brownies!

dead asleep.
jolt!
the keys are still in the ingnition!

confusion.
yeah but...the brownies!!

frustrated.
in my car.

panicked.
are they still in the oven?

over it.
your mom is home.


oh.

dead asleep.

signed, golf virgin

going golfing today.
and swimming.
at least i know how to swim.
and at least my saturday isn't a complete
waste.

heaven on the lake's edge

saturday came somewhat swiftly. today is my first day here by myself, and i only have 13 minutes until we are officially closed and i made it. i'll admit it. i'm really proud of myself. sure i have four or five issues i need to have my boss help me out with on monday, but for the most part, the customers were overall pleased with my service.
tonight, we're all heading down to the manti pageant, stoked to say the least. Landon decided to bail because he is going to ride his motorcycle. don't worry though, i was a good girl friend and supported his "me" without the slightest bitterness or a guilt trip. not that i usually do, i'm just sayin... i behaved when he told me.
last night, he and i went for a drive. no need to buy anything, we just wanted to drive and listen to music. it was so delightful. he took me to the edge of utah lake just behind the provo airport right at sunset. we sat in silence, my head on his chest listening to this song. the bugs outside swirled in the wind and my mouth watered as the clouds turned from white, to light orange, to orange, to pink, to red, then to a lavender. Landon smelled like heaven and for all i knew at that moment, i was there.

title-less.

simplicity.
that's all i ask.
basking in the sun that
bleeds through the dusty
blinds.
telephone stays silent.
time slowly flows on by.
i await six,
but until then,
simplicity.
that's all i ask.

michael mclean is my bff

i saw michael mclean tonight. he is spectacular.
conference and firesides are great, i love the insight i receive from them
and what i learn in general,
but there is something so different about a spiritual musical experience.
music can reach something in my soul that words never will be able to.
he played for me what my spirit needed to feel tonight.
questions were answered tonight through sweet melodies.
thank you michael, you helped a lot of people tonight.

and on a seperate note, Landon is taking me to Backstreet Boys!! :) yay! i love him.

to swizterland:

i feel like going to switzerland and kicking serious @$$. four of the three people who read my blog won't quite understand, but i know one does.

don't let it destroy you, i know it hurts, but you're still the one who has the upper hand on this. you're winning, i know it doesn't look like it from some perspectives, but you are.
damn switzerland.

and just remember, whether switzerland decides to take it's head out of it's buttless butt or not,
you've got it going on, with your P90X and your awesomess, you can walk on water, you can fly.

my life is better because of you.

to ricardo:
man of Panda
you know me,
you sure know i'm going to get the shrimp.
honey and almonds
mini heart attacks and heaven deep fried all in one
and still, you offer me a sample.
service with a smile,
sharing is caring,
simple acts of love.
we're strangers, and still
your swollen sides
share similarities of a friend.
thank you for spoiling me
i'll take all the shrimp you've got to give.

to calvin and hobbes:
holy crap! where have you been all my life?

Delete:

we're complete opposites in a lot of ways, and yet there couldn't be a pair better friends than us. we balance each other out and help each other think rationally when the other isn't. you taught me how to appreciate hard work when it comes to art and school. you've shown me what true passion means. you're not that friend who tries to change my opinion of what i feel. you don't judge me and you sincerely try to look at things from my point of view when you don't understand. you've taught me how to cry. (that's a good thing) you've taught me the meaning of faith. you've shown me love and friendship that i will never be able to thank you for. you've given me advice that may never have surfaced on it's own. you've been spiteful with me, you've been obsessed along with me, you've been honest with me, but most of all, you've been with me.

so, thanks.

today:

curious iraqis and
iraqis wearing helmets
cuddling with Landon for three minutes before going to work
using the bathroom
entering hundreds of internet orders and laughing at people's names
behr bom. carrie carree. toni doney. janae develbiss. stormy draney.
lunch with Landon at the purple turtle
tator tots
using the bathroom
thumb wars
brain freezes
nimrods
being called blonde by a bitter asian
using the bathroom
mean girl is being nicer
free falling by john meyer
using the bathroom
freeze dried chicken dices: $31.87
using the bathroom
now i'm waiting for Landon to come home.

tuesday

i cut my hair today. and i'm blond. go figure.
i haven't seen Landon in 32 1/2 hours.
glee is on in 88 minutes.
i work tomorrow.
Landon
will
be
home
in
28 minutes.
i hope he likes my hair.

RA-RA-RA-AH-AH-AH--AH

it's funny how sitting at a desk for nine hours a day can completely EXHAUST you. i hardly move the entire day and still i feel like i need to go to bed at nine. all day long entering internet orders. ctrl+shift+f8 this and shift+f12 that. i've never used the f keys in my entire life and now that's all i do. but i do get to listen to music while i do it which is nice. speaking of music. one word.

glee.

last night was absolutely spectacular. i'm tempted to make so many puns about being gaga for gaga, but then i'm no better than the coco puffs bird who is hopped up one who knows what. but, AH-AH! i loved the entire thing. i even teared up there at the end. if you haven't seen it, download it, watch it on hulu, DO SOMETHING! it's inspiring i tell you. and i just downloaded the whole album. yay!!

Landon will be jealous.

summer schedule

first day on the job today! it was grand. i did a lot of data entry but tomorrow i will be working with the customers more. i guess i should go more into detail what i do now. i work at a food storage company called shelfreliance. it's really cool stuff and i want it all. and just f your i readers, the freeze dried strawberries and pineapple is AMAZING. also, i hear great things about their macaroons, though i wouldn't really know what to compare it to considering i have never had a macaroon in my entire life, so. i will be working from 9-6 five days a week so i will be kept pretty busy this summer, which is great because i was sort of almost dying with Landon being gone the whole day. i miss him. i will be getting a day off during the week though, so i am going to coordinate it with my father so i can go boating once a week. because i would be sad if i missed out on moments like this...
and that will be my summer schedule.

hallelujah.

so i've really only been an american idol fan twice in my life-right when it started and when david archuleta was competing. other than that? i don't really care much about it. but my roommate insisted we watch it on tuesday. and since Landon was in the shower i figured i didn't have much else to do. that is where i heard this performance. where chills erupted on my skin and tears brimmed in my eyes. the guy made a fan out of me.

on another, less inspiring and yet almost as awesome note, i got a job! yay! i know i've enjoyed my unemployment but it's time to start bringing in some money. or as Landon said when i told him the good news, "finally! it's about time you started pulling your weight in this relationship." love that kid. this was just after he found the brand new volcom hat i bought him and the crayon drawing of him and me holding hands with a heart in between us. pulling my weight my butt. :) and now he has a "whitney loves Landon" shrine in his room where he has taped up the poem i wrote him and the picture i drew. so now any remotely cute or sentimental thing i give him that is capable of being supported by scotch tape will now be on his wall. flattering.

hallelujah.

leg waxing and pageants

Yesterday, i was skimming through my pictures on facebook and came across a masquerade i attended last october. i showed my new roommate (who was enjoying cottage cheese) and told her how much i loved that dress i was wearing. she satisfied me with her oohs and ahhs and i told her i had it in the closet. and with that i ran to the closet, stripped down and threw it on. we then spent the next two hours waxing her legs.
in the middle of the wax, my Landon came home. i ran over there after a few more strips and jumped on his bed in my giant dress just as he had fallen asleep. right when he opened his eyes a huge smile spread across his face when he saw what i was wearing. he gushed over my beauty and demanded that i wear the dress with him to dinner after his nap. and that i did. Landon took me to tucanos and he let me tell everyone that i was participating in the miss orem pageant and tonight was one of our final rehearsals. Landon held in a burst of laughter when each server told us one of their co-workers was in the same pageant. the entire night i was praying she wasn't there. luckily she wasn't, she was probably at the same rehearsal i was supposed to be at. it was a fantastic night, great food and the most handsome boy you could ever imagine held my hand the whole time. my life is awesome.

two months after march 12, 2010

today is mine and Landon's "two month anniversary." poke fun if you must, everyone else is, but i feel the need to celebrate two months being with the most amazing person i have ever met. and yes, it is 3:23 in the morning. i haven't slept yet, nor do i intend to until after 6 am for that is when Landon leaves for work. i am making him a manly breakfast in bed consisting of pancakes, thick sizzling bacon (to kayleigh....BACONNNN!!!), eggs over easy, toast in the shape of hearts, fresh sliced strawberries, and chocolate milk. mmmm of course, i don't want to start making the food for about another hour, so i have been preparing for it. call me sneaky because first, i had to jack his keys and for the past hour i have been stealthily sneaking in a small table, glasses, and silverware. all into his room, where he slumbers. this is one of those moments where the smallest little vibration of a sound seems like an 8.6 earthquake. i had the hardest freaking time opening his bedroom door. damn thing squeaks like you wouldn't believe. and ofcourse i have to do it all in the dark, so while i wait for my eyes to adjust my eyes play tricks on me. it was really quite comical. i was just waiting for one of his roommates to jump out of no where and make me pee myself. i also made a playlist on my ipod of songs that remind me of him. starting with our song, "you're making my dreams come true" by hall and oates. so i snuck into his truck and hooked it up to his sound system so he can listen to my playlist on his way to work. also in my boredom, i made a poem up for him. still trying to decide where to put it... if you don't judge me, i will share it with you.

"two months after march 12, 2010"

two months of staring into your eyes and still getting lost,

of zombies and the volcom stone.

two months of stutters and butterflies and timeless tickle fights.

and guess what babe,

i love you more.

only two moths and I’m addicted to glee, addicted to ripsticks,

and to mafia wars.

you know my world was turned the moment

you asked me to be your girl.

so let’s face it, baby, it’s really you I’m addicted to.

-whitneyleigh

and that is how i feel. now, i'm going to go shower and primp for my breakfast date. wish me luck with cooking the eggs over easy.

unEmployment.

so, i quit my job last week and i am still in the process of finding a new one. and by "in the process" i mean, i laid out in the sun for 4 hours, rip sticked for 1, and painted my nails.
unEmployment rocks. however, in my blissful nothingness, i was still missing my boy.
so what did i do to hide from the heat stroke? i watched 16 and pregnant on mtv. stupid disfunctional relationships and preggo teenage girls. is it really as bad as it looks? or do you think that maybe, mtv makes it a little more dramatic?

and then i tried to trick the people at sprint into giving me a new phone. i'll be honest. i flat out lied in so many ways, and i still left the store with the same phone. a waste of an hour and a half.

only 33 more minutes til Landon gets home.

Sweaters and Nature's Poo

"Sometimes the only thing that gets me through this world is knowing that Kobe Bryant hates me just as much as I hate him."
-Me

"One day I'm going to have my own brand of peanut butter and I'm going to call it Nature's Poo."
-Landon

and sometimes i think this summer is going to be really hard with that kid getting home at 7 and going to bed at 10 o'clock every night. so today, i raise my glass to the rain. the rain that rained out his construction site so he got spend the day with me. thank you, rain. and now, i'm in bed. in bed watching wizards of waverly place. in bed watching wizards of waverly place while wearing Landon's sweater he forgot to get back from me. in bed watching wizards of waverly place while wearing Landon's sweater he forgot to get back from me and enjoying the faint smell of him. love you Landon. xo.

And then there was Landon.

This is my proclamation to the world:

I am in love with a boy who is:
6'4
Handsome
Hilarious
Unbelievably kind
Generous
Daring
A dirt bike rider
Loving
Spiritual
Understanding
Strong
Non-judgmental
Spontaneous
Memorable
Respectful
Happy
Good with my family and his
Handsome
Has enormous pecks
A nerd
A cool guy


My other half.
So now I say to every guy in my past,



"Peace."